Miserable Disappointment

I honestly can not believe I just did that. How dare I throw such a God-given opportunity back in their faces? How dare I choose to act in such a way that says I believe my own choices, preferences and plans are more important than someone else's? How can I ever face anyone again that I have just slighted? Why can't I just travel through life without any human interaction or ever needing to worry about making everyone else happy? I would rather live in the wildest of wildernesses, on only grass and roots than to ever have to face this again...